Thursday, July 12, 2012

happy tears

this morning my grandpa jay passed on suddenly
ten years ago i was crying really sad tears when his wife, my sweet grandma passed away suddenly

now, my tears are happy tears
happy they get to be together again
happy that grandpa doesn't have to live in pain anymore
happy that i know of the eternal perspective.

but, i do still miss them and cry a few sad tears for me since i don't get to be with them yet. i have to be patient.
i guess i'm never really ready, no matter how much i prepare myself for someone's death.

i'm happy for you, grandpa jay.  i'm sure you're already taking such good care of grandma like you always do.

me and grandpa jay on the 4th of july 2010

my testimony of the Lord's tender mercies grew today as I've thought back on all three of my grandparents deaths happening almost immediately following a family gathering.  grandpa jay got one last trip with the family to bear lake last week and i think that was just right.

4 comments:

Preston said...

Thanks for your words, Jac. I hadn't had any tears yet until I read this. I agree with you and am now imagining Grandpa Jay happier right now than he's been in over 10 years.

Adri said...

The timing is uncanny, isn't it? Thanks for your thoughts.

Tyson & Rachel said...

I was thinking about the same thing. Grandma waited until after the family Christmas party, and Grandpa waited until after Bear Lake. Both of them got to see the family having fun together before they departed. I'm glad they're finally together again! Missing you!

Fay said...

Thanks for sharing, Jaci, you are amazing. Grandpa Jay was a good hardworking man, and I honor him for it. He loved us all in his way...and I'm glad he is in heaven now, whole and happy.